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Wednesday, 6 November 2013

Frustration, website problems & the “Dark potatoes in the soil of my life”!

Yesterday I got into a right stew about the Bible Cartoons website! I discovered that the reason I haven’t had any sales lately was because the shopping cart on the website was broken...

My frustration level went from DefCon 5 to 4.

I read some articles on the PayPal website, which just confused me...

My frustration level went from DefCon 4 to 3.

I purchased a piece of software that promised to resolve the issue; I altered it to make it specific for Bible Cartoons, uploaded it & it made no difference...

My frustration level went from DefCon 3 to 2.

I prayed; I read some more; I tried to be reasonable; I tried to remain calm & to be philosophical about the issues, but nothing worked...

My frustration level went from DefCon 2 to 1.

Then I ranted at God saying “If you loved me you’d fix this!”

Doubting God’s love & goodness - an annual event?!
I’ve just been looking through last years journal & I came across an entry from 17/November/2012 outlining a very similar event in the life of the Bible Cartoons website, & a VERY similar “If you loved me you’d fix this!” response in me - unfortunately! It is nearly one year ago, to the day, that I was frustrated & doubting the love of God for me & my life... I even wondered if this could be an annual event!!!

It was interesting reading because I recorded God’s intervention & assistance, some days later. There was even a daily devotional entry in Word for Today entitled “Imagine being adopted by God!” which was very helpful at the time. The sentence that REALLY grabbed my attention was this one: “You don’t earn the Spirit of adoption, you receive it by faith. That’s important, because if you can’t gain it by your stellar efforts, YOU CAN’T LOOSE IT THROUGH YOUR POOR PERFORMANCE. How reassuring!” [emboldened by MY for emphasis]

If you love me.
“IF you love me...” is an old question. It’s a VERY old question. In fact it’s probably the first question. In Genesis chapter 3 the serpent (aka Satan, the Devil) casts doubt about God’s love in Adam & Eve’s minds by asking the question “Did God really say...?” [1] Satan’s tactic then was to CAST DOUBT in the minds of Adam & Eve about God’s love & goodness towards them. He knew that if he could get them to doubt God, then they would eat fruit from the tree & suffer the consequences.

The serpent was planting the idea in Adam & Eve’s minds that God WAS HOLDING OUT ON THEM. And they believed that. That’s why they ate the fruit. That’s why sin entered the world.
It’s interesting to note that when I was at my lowest ebb yesterday, deeply frustrated by the Bible Cartoons website & unable to fix the problem, it was THEN that the thought occurred to me “If you loved me you’d fix this!” In other words, Satan (the accuser of the brethren) had dropped the thought into my mind that God WAS HOLDING OUT ON ME. And I believed it. Satan’s tactics are the SAME as they were thousands of years ago, in the garden of Eden.

Since this outburst against God I have calmed down (back to DefCon 5!) & realised what was going on yesterday. I have repented of my outburst & asked for God’s forgiveness about doubting Him & His purposes in my life. I have received God’s forgiveness.

I have also realised that God ALLOWS these frustrating events to happen in my life for a purpose. It is not that He is being mean to me! It is not that He wants to put hoops up for me to jump through! He is not being deliberately difficult, or withholding his love &/or power from me.

So, why does God allow me to experience frustrating events? I believe it is in order to show me that I have some old thought patterns (doubts & unbelief) deep down inside my mind, & which now need to surface, in order that they can be EXAMINED, EVALUATED & RESOLVED. If that happens then these doubts & unbeliefs will loose their power to frustrate me, & ultimately Satan will loose his ability to cast doubt into my mind about the goodness of God. Once these doubts & unbeliefs are resolved then no longer will Satan’s thought “Did God really say...?” have any power over me. I will simply be able to say “Get out of here, I KNOW God loves me & wants the best for me!” & that will be that! No more DefCon1 verbal explosions at God thank you very much!

”Dark Potatoes”.
The process of UNCOVERING, EXAMINING, EVALUATING & RESOLVING my doubts about God’s love for me may take some time... quite a bit of time I suspect! I can be quite a stubborn persona after all! But God is very patient. I’ve had these doubts about the love of God for me for a very long time; most of my life in fact; they are deep-rooted... & these roots need pulling up!
Last night I referred to my doubts about the love of God as “DARK POTATOES IN THE SOIL OF MY LIFE” which seems quite an apt description. I think God allows me to experience frustration in life in order to “dig up” these doubts. The frustration of life actually causes these doubts to resurface in my mind. Of course, digging them up EXPOSES them to the light, which is rather painful for me! Nevertheless, I can see that God needs to uncover these “dark potatoes of doubt”, or else they will simply remain “in the soil of my life”, deeply buried & unresolved. Then, the next time I am frustrated by life they will re-emerge & plague me again, & again, & again.

God loves me FAR TOO MUCH to allow me to have deeply poisonous doubts & unbeliefs buried deep in my mind. He knows that, sooner or later, these “dark potatoes” will emerge to hurt my relationship with Him once more. All it takes is sufficient stress & frustration, then the “dark potatoes” of doubt about God’s love for me emerge again. And at that point Satan is effective at pointing to these deeply held (wrong) beliefs & accuses God TO ME, saying “God’s holding out on you again” & “God obviously doesn’t love you, or else he would fix that problem”, etc.
But this time I think Satan has “tipped his hand” a bit too much, because I’ve noticed his tactics & realised what is going on in my mind. At the same time I believe God is allowing me to experience these doubts & unbeliefs about his goodness in order that I finally UNCOVER, EXAMINE, EVALUATE & RESOLVE them.

As I said, I think the process of recovery may be a long one, but at least I’m ON the road to recovery! God is very, VERY patient with me, & sooner or later these nagging doubts about God’s love WILL be resolved. I look forward to that day.

If you’ve got any similar stories, please do write & let me know.


[1]
Genesis 3:1-7 (NLT)
The serpent was the shrewdest of all the wild animals the Lord God had made. One day he asked the woman, “Did God really say you must not eat the fruit from any of the trees in the garden?”
“Of course we may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,” the woman replied. “It’s only the fruit from the tree in the middle of the garden that we are not allowed to eat. God said, ‘You must not eat it or even touch it; if you do, you will die.’”
“You won’t die!” the serpent replied to the woman. “God knows that your eyes will be opened as soon as you eat it, and you will be like God, knowing both good and evil.”
The woman was convinced. She saw that the tree was beautiful and its fruit looked delicious, and she wanted the wisdom it would give her. So she took some of the fruit and ate it. Then she gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it, too. At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness. So they sewed fig leaves together to cover themselves.

Friday, 4 January 2013

2012 Review

Lots of interesting things have happened in the world of Bible Cartoons last year, here’s my review...

1) Important Bible passages for me & BC this year:
Be Passionate About - '...I have...determined to do his will...' Isaiah 50:7
Purpose - 'My life is worth nothing...unless I use it for finishing the work assigned me by the Lord.' Acts 20:24
Lasting Success - 'He who abides in Me...bears much fruit.' John 15:5
You Need a 'Word'  -  'Your ears shall hear a word.' Isaiah 30:21
Stay focussed - ‘…Let us strip off every weight that slows us down.’ Hebrews 12:1
God can turn your failure into success - ‘…Because you say so, I will...’ Luke 5:5 NIV

2) Vision pictures I’ve received from the Lord God this year:
05/January - Had a vision-dream about a whirlpool. I produced a coloured digital painting of the scene I saw, which you can see in the BC blog.
03/June - God was sitting next to me on one of those horse-drawn wooden wagons that are featured in cowboy films! It was a dream about obedience & choosing to follow where God leads me.

3) Interesting facts & Statistics for 2012
8th January we received our 100th customer, & on 31/December/2012 we received our 200th customer!
16th January - Got our first customer from Germany.
15th February - “Jonah, no ordinary fish tale” book loaded onto Amazon! I drew the cover artwork... never had a book on amazon before! ( http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0076ZSO6Y )
13th April - Got our first ever Danish customer.
8th May -Got our first customer from Singapore.
10th May - Started emailing USA churches, in states where we have not had any customers yet.
7th June - Got our first ever Indonesian customer.
27th June - Started drawing the Olympics sketches.
20th September - Supplied my Bible Cartoons Jonah video to a lady in Eastern states of Australia, who used it on a mission trip.
26th October - Got our first ever customer from Norway.
7th November - Cartooning Development: First time I created a cartoon (Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 09 - Gifts) with more than one version. Colour version, Starlight version, Blue version.
19th December - We got our first ever customer from the Czech Republic.
31st December - Got our 200th customer - Praise the Lord!
The BC website received over 29,000 visits from January to December in 2012.
There were over 24,000 Unique visitors & over 143,000 Page views - wow!

4) BC website improvements made this year:
I’ve done a lot of work on the BC website this year.

23rd January - Added Customer Comments & Testimonials page to BC website. Added all the comments from facebook, email & flickr! from 2009 to present.

6th March - Tried to install an upgraded version of Content Management System, but I messed it up...  the BC website was off-line for 3 days!

27th April - Major overhaul of the page on which visitors view the cartoons. New Gallery page template went live, with the Previous & Next arrow navigation.

11th May - Created new, slim buttons for the menu bar, to save some valuable space at the top of every page on the BC website.
21st May - Added a map showing the approximate location of our lovely customers. I make sure that we do not give the exact location away - as we value our customers privacy A LOT!

2nd July - My friend Dan fixed the Search function on BC website - hurray! It had been non-operational for several months.

25th Septemeber - Registered & bought: biblecartoons.net, biblecartoons.org, biblecartoons.biz, biblecartoons.info & biblecartoons.mobi

20th November - Added a slideshow to the BC website homepage.

10th December - Changed the landing page that has been used ever since the BC website went live. The old version showed 4 randomly selected cartoons. Now the landing page is identical to the homepage.

5) BC Merchandise designed & sold this year:
Easter Activity Book
Exodus Activity Book
7 different designs in the “...And you think you’re having a Bad Day!” series of mugs. Also created a one off “True Light” Christmas mug.
Created 3 new Christmas card designs.

6) Viewing figures
Most viewed Old Testament cartoon = Nehemiah 03 - Rebuilding Jerusalem's walls (3779 viewings to 31/12/2012)
32 cartoons of the 98 OT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 1000 times.
of those, 11 cartoons of the 98 OT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 2000 times.
of those, 6 cartoons of the 98 OT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 3000 times.

Most viewed New Testament cartoon & most viewed Bible Cartoon ever! = Luke 15 - The Prodigal son - Scene 03 - With the pigs (6879 viewings to 31/12/2012)
56 cartoons of the 148 NT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 1000 times.
of those, 18 cartoons of the 148 NT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 2000 times.
of those, 6 cartoons of the 148 NT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 3000 times.
of those, 4 cartoons of the 148 NT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 4000 times.
of those, 3 cartoons of the 148 NT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 5000 times.
of those, 1 cartoon of the 148 NT cartoons currently drawn have been viewed over 6000 times.

7) Gospel Illustrations drawn this year:
I have only managed to draw 1 Gospel Illustration this year = Communion - Bread & Wine, drawn on 23/May/2012

8) Cartoons drawn this year:
I set out to draw 50 new Bible Cartoons in 2012. I actually managed to draw 59, finishing the last one with a dramatic screech of tyres & plume of smoke... a mere 7 hours before the end of 2012!
Here’s my breakdown of what cartoons I drew in each of the 4 quarters I divide my year up into:

First Quarter
16/01/2012   Exodus 14 - Parting of the Red Sea - Scene 07 - Move on
18/01/2012   Exodus 14 - Parting of the Red Sea - Scene 08 - Cloud
20/01/2012   Exodus 14 - Parting of the Red Sea - Scene 09 - Sea parts
24/01/2012   Exodus 14 - Parting of the Red Sea - Scene 11 - Confusion
26/01/2012   Exodus 14 - Parting of the Red Sea - Scene 12 - Sea returns
31/01/2012   Exodus 14 - Parting of the Red Sea - Scene 13 - Drowned
03/02/2012   Exodus 14 - Parting of the Red Sea - Scene 14 - Trust
10/02/2012   Matthew 03 - Jesus' baptism - Scene 07 - Dove
29/02/2012   Matthew 04 - Temptation of Jesus - Scene 04 - Temple
02/03/2012   Matthew 04 - Temptation of Jesus - Scene 05 - Mountain
05/03/2012   Matthew 04 - Temptation of Jesus - Scene 06 - Angels
05/03/2012   Mark 15 - The Crucifixion - Scene 02 - Simon of Cyrene
08/03/2012   Matthew 04 - Temptation of Jesus - Scene 01 -Wilderness
09/03/2012   Matthew 04 - Temptation of Jesus - Scene 02 - Fasting
13/03/2012   Matthew 01 - The Nativity - Scene 04 - Jesus’ birth
13/03/2012   Matthew 01 - The Nativity - Scene 0a - Just a stable?
20/03/2012   Mark 15 - Trial of Jesus - Scene 06 - Barabbas released
21/02/2012   Matthew 04 - Temptation of Jesus - Scene 03 - Stones
26/03/2012   Mark 15 - Trial of Jesus - Scene 07 - Jesus flogged
27/03/2012   Mark 15 - Trial of Jesus - Scene 08 - Thorns & abuse
30/03/2012   Mark 15 - The Crucifixion - Scene 05 - Sign board

Second Quarter
09/05/2012   Mark 15 - The Crucifixion - Scene 04 - Soldiers gambling
14/05/2012   Leviticus 16 - The Scapegoat
17/05/2012   Ruth 01 - In Moab - Scene 05 - Ruth determined
29/05/2012   Deuteronomy 1 - Scene 05 - Spies in Eshcol (dappled lighting)
29/05/2012   Deuteronomy 1 - Scene 05 - Spies in Eshcol (simple lighting)
11/06/2012   2 Samuel 6 - The Ark brought to Jerusalem - Scene 05 - David dances
15/06/2012   2 Kings 2 - Elijah taken into heaven - Scene 06 - Chariot of fire
22/06/2012   Matthew 07 - Wise & foolish builders - Scene 01 - Digging foundations
22/06/2012   Matthew 07 - Wise & foolish builders - Scene 02 - Building
22/06/2012   Matthew 07 - Wise & foolish builders - Scene 03 - Foolish Builder finished
23/06/2012   Matthew 07 - Wise & foolish builders - Scene 04 - Storm approaching
26/06/2012   Matthew 07 - Wise & foolish builders - Scene 05 - Swept away
26/06/2012   Matthew 07 - Wise & foolish builders - Scene 06 - Standing on the rock

Third Quarter
05/07/2012   Hebrews 12 - Throw off sin entanglements in the race
13/07/2012   1 Chronicles 10 - King Saul takes his life - Scene 01 - Fierce fighting
18/07/2012   2 Chronicles 9 - Queen of Sheba - Scene 01 - Great caravan
27/07/2012   Ezra 3 - Rebuilding the Temple - Scene 04 - Foundation and tears
30/07/2012   Psalm 119 - Torch Bearer [Olympics]
02/08/2012   Romans 02 - God’s Righteous Judgement - Scene 01 - Passing judgement
10/09/2012   Philippians 2 - Imitating Christ’s Humility
17/09/2012   Matthew 19 - The rich young man - Scene 03 - Camel
20/09/2012   Matthew 18 - Lost sheep parable - Scene 01 - Sheep pen
24/09/2012   Matthew 18 - Lost sheep parable - Scene 02 - Searching
24/09/2012   Matthew 18 - Lost sheep parable - Scene 03 - Found
29/09/2012   Matthew 18 - Lost sheep parable - Scene 04 - Cherished
29/09/2012   Matthew 18 - Lost sheep parable - Scene 05 - Return home

Fourth Quarter
19/10/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 06 - King Herod’s meeting
24/10/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 08 - The star
07/11/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 09 - Gifts (Colour  versions)
07/11/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 09 - Gifts (Starlight versions)
07/11/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 09 - Gifts (Blue  versions)
15/11/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 10 - Wise men return home
19/11/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 11 - Joseph's Dream
28/11/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 12 - Flight to Egypt (Colour version)
28/11/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 12 - Flight to Egypt (Night version)
10/12/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 13 - Infants murdered
05/12/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 14 - Return to Israel (Colour version)
05/12/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 14 - Return to Israel (Gold version)
13/12/2012   Matthew 02 - The Nativity - Scene 15 - Nazareth in Galilee
17/12/2012   1 Samuel 17 - David & Goliath - Scene 05 - David and the lion
18/12/2012   1 Samuel 17 - David & Goliath - Scene 06 - David practising
19/12/2012   1 Samuel 17 - David & Goliath - Scene 03 - Goliath boasts [in the valley of Elah]

Conclusion
So there you have it, my review of 2012. It has been an interesting, trying, frustrating, amazing, humbling, brilliant year of my life. I still really love to be involved with the Bible Cartoons Project. I can’t think of anything else I’d rather be doing with my life. I love the creativity & the fact that I am serving both the Lord & people all over the world is excellent. I love hearing from customers who have used my cartoons for in their churches & ministries. That really helps me to realise that my work makes a different & positive contribution to so many people.